this is a type of autobiographical work. biased, of course.
larry d. rosalez-lewis
26yrs old | gainesville, fl
Modern man is no longer interested in finding the truth. Rather, he is interested in being validated. So much of what passes for news can be easily disproved, or at the very least can be found to be evidence neutral, but because it sounds good and feels right, it is correct enough.
I tell my students, ‘When you get these jobs that you have been so brilliantly trained for, just remember that your real job is that if you are free, you need to free somebody else. If you have some power, then your job is to empower somebody else. This is not just a grab-bag candy game.’
— Toni Morrison (via ethiopienne)
Anonymous said: Why did you shave off your beautiful hair!? 😱😱
i’m still figuring that out. i know that i wanted to, and i know that i don’t regret it. there’s were a lot of impulses leading up to it, and i didn’t feel like i needed to know the exact why to i cut it this time around. i followed the impulse before i had a concrete why and i think it’s valuable to search for and find the meaning from this event.
so here’s some of what was rattling around in my head:
i felt like it was time to. i didn’t set out to grow it forever, so it was more like asking “if you feel like it, why wouldn’t you shave off your hair?”
it was getting big & distracting, the dandruff was getting annoying, and for a couple months i’d been having these fits of rage/frustration/inspiration/excitement like “i’m gonna cut all this sh*t off!”
i like the representation of renewing or a new season or a starting over altogether. i remember having an “i’m gonna cut all this sh*t off” fit right after that night i had sex.
i don’t wanna be too attached to something as external as hair.
it feels good to rub tea-tree and coconut oil on my scalp.
there’s something rewarding about the detachment from it — being able to exercise the autonomy to cut it, knowing that it can grow again, the anticipation leading up to the cut, the change of sensation.
sometimes after dancing for a few days before a wash it smelled bad.
i knew cutting it would challenge people to disassociate me from just hair: “the guy with the hair.”
i looked at old pictures and remembered liking the way the buzz looks on me.
i wanted to film it/document it and use the imagery for something later.
it’s like an external landmark for an internal shift.
i wanted to try letting it loc from the beginning and i know if i want to, it will grow back.
Anonymous said: Noooo :(
it is what it is.
Anonymous said: you are my go to for afro inspo. but how do you manage dryness/shrinkage/breakage without using any product? my breakage is the worst when trying to fluff out hair that's been flattened while sleeping.
i dunno if i’m the best go-to for your questions.
i was letting my hair loc andmy approach to my hair has been moving more and more towards not managing it for aesthetic purposes. if it’s dry it’s dry, if it shrinks it shrinks, if it breaks it breaks, and that works for me.
i didn’t start growing my hair with any goal of what it would look like or how long it would be. it just grows. (and if i don’t stop it, it locs.) it’s my hair with all of it’s uniqueness and i try not to see it as a style or compare it to other hair-growers to determine what it should or shouldn’t look like.
the issues i’ve had with my hair have been the attention, organizing time to wash it, and dandruff. ooooooo my dandruff was a killa yall.
i shaved it yesterday to start over though, so we’ll see how i fair this go round.